I said that I only wanted to write when I felt positive, or when I felt neutral. Hence, I haven’t written in almost two weeks.
I’ve had some nice moments in the past two weeks, and I can’t say I’ve felt particularly depressive, and yet I’ve been uninspired to write. I’m emotionally drained. I’ve come home at night wanting to write and clean, and then I get in the couch and I just… sank into the cushions.
I feel unproductive and lost. I need a burst of energy, an inspiration to get me moving again. I felt good this week drinking celery juice and I just got my hair done, but something is definitely off about my mental state. My social media detox lasted about three days, and now everything is back on my phone.
What can I say, Youtube drama doesn’t last and everything is back to normal! Maybe I just need a new normal.
I want to take this little brain hibernation positively, as though it’s a sign from the universe that a change has to come. I just don’t know where I need to manifest this energy. The stress from my work is coming to an end this week, as mostly everything and everyone has been migrated. That will probably help my brain return to a more positive place.
There is a crow screaming outside my house right now. I went outside to see if it was, in fact, a raven (I’ve made that mistake before), and I threw out the dead flowers that were sitting on the counter. It was a step in the right direction.
I need to steam my clothes. I need to do my nails. I need to chop up some celery to make juice in the morning. I need to clean my space!
I will be back. My brain just needs a spark. Let’s spark some Joy.
Joy is my last name. It’s fine. Thank you.