February Wrap-Up: How we doin?

Happy Fat Tuesday! Or is it “National Pancake Day?” Maybe it’s both. Either way, it’s the last Tuesday of the month. Time for a full month’s reflection!

  1. Read 52 books – I am on book 3 of the month, and I think I will have it finished by tonight! I am very excited about my progress. I’ll discuss my books later, but for now, I’ll just say that this month’s reads felt a bit lighter.

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  2. Do pull ups – I had Aaron “spot” me at the gym to help me improve my form. According to him, I’m very close to getting it! I’ve been using my muscles the wrong way, so I’ve started adding lat pull-downs to my workout. I feel like I’m still using the wrong muscles, but I’ll keep trying.
  3. Spend LESS. TIME. SCROLLING.  – Not great Bob. I really need to focus on this one in the new month. I think that my phone is straight up a crutch. I need to leave it at home.
  4. Write 104 Blog Posts – I think I’m doing well with this! I like writing, it keeps me focused.
  5. Romantic Trip with Aaron from Dec. 26 – Jan. 2 – Should I keep writing about this one if I’ve already completed it? Mission accomplished? I think I’ll skip this one moving forward unless something happens and our trip gets cancelled (and therefore need to reschedule/get a new trip).
  6. Stop engaging in schadenfreude – I think I’m doing better with this one! I can’t remember the last “scandalous” or “gossip” video I watched. I may have fallen down one or two twitter threads, but that’s not bad considering how long I used to scroll comments and Reddit forums of passive aggression. I’ve been trying to flip my mindset in general to be focused more on when people do something nice. I think that helps, too!
  7. Take better care of my skin – This is going well! I signed up for a facial membership and got new products. I’ve started using a Neutrogena scrub on my back because for some reason my body has decided now, at 25, is a good time for me to get crazy bad bacne. Lord, beer me strength. I’m using the skincare my facialist provided me on my face and chest, but the Neutrogena scrub on my back and shoulders. I’m going to be rigorous with both and see which side of me looks better. If all else fails and I don’t see results after 3 months, I’ll go to a dermatologist. I got invited to a wedding in December and I’ve got a dress that would look great if I lose the bacne and do well with resolution 12.

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    Image from Google Results. It’s Kourtney Kardashian.

  8. Go stargazing – Not yet, but it’s still cold outside at night! March and April will hopefully be warmer but not sticky, so I can enjoy it more!
  9. Get a new job – I have a projected timeline of being out by this summer. Hopefully by the end of next month I can say “I’m out cub scout!”
  10. Do a handstand –  I had Aaron “spot” me with this one too! He recommended I practice getting closer to the wall to build up my strength. I’ve hit a mental wall because when I get off the wall, my shoes scuff the paint. No one’s saying anything but even if I wipe the wall I just wipe off the paint. You can see the streaks of my shoes if you look at the wall. I think if I press my luck more I will get caught and have to pay for the wall to get repainted. IN MY DEFENSE THAT WALL HAS BEEN BLUE FOR THE PAST HOWEVER MANY MONTHS. WHY IS PAINT COMING OFF WHEN I WIPE THE WALL WITH A SINGLE CLOROX WIPE.
  11. Go see two of my favorite performers – The performers previously mentioned are still not on tour. John Mulaney added dates for a venue in Canada, but I think that’s for taping a live show/Netflix special. The rest are still MIA (save, again, for Billie’s tour next month that would be too expensive). I decided to commit to my January suggestion and aim to see “Dear Evan Hansen” and “Hamilton.” And… mission accomplished! I’m seeing “Dear Evan Hansen” in April and “Hamilton” on Broadway in July! I can’t believe it! I’m finally seeing the two shows I’ve been dying to see for years! I can’t wait! I’m so happy!

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    Hamilton: An American Musical. By Lin-Manuel Miranda, directed by Thomas Kail, 21 Apr. 2016, Richard Rodgers Theatre, New York, NY. Performance.

  12. Lose weight – Words cannot describe how much I’m tanking this one. I’m still eating too much sugar (and not the good sugar from fruit, like.. handfuls of chocolate chips from the bag), and my body just REALLY doesn’t care that my brain wants me to be healthier. I hope that I can say I’ve made more progress by this time next month. I’m really embarrassed by my lack of progress here.
  13. Give Aaron a great 26th birthday – Aaron and I haven’t fully discussed his birthday yet. I’ve been determining better weekends for me to go up to Boston to see my friends and see my family in New York, and I’ve set aside both the weekend before and after his birthday (his birthday is a WEDNESDAY) to make sure we have a nice time. I think he’d like going to St. Augustine or maybe even Sarasota, but I am not sure he even knows what he wants. I’m taking down random gift ideas he has (basically every time he wants something I write it down somewhere) so I can at least get him a good gift.
  14. Be a better friend, wife, sister, daughter, and granddaughter – I sent my grandpa a nice email yesterday catching him up on life. He doesn’t answer the phone much but I know he checks his email. I saw my dad last week and we talked about the current political climate and his life. I think he’s not taking good enough care of himself because he has chronic back pain. He says his doctor says all he can do is medicate and then when he can’t take it anymore, do a very risky surgery. I refuse to believe that is all “Big Pharma” has to offer. My dad assures me that he knows what he’s doing and he’s doing great for someone his age. I don’t know if I believe him.

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    Image from Giphy. “Pilot”. Parks and Recreation . NBC. 9 April 2009.

    I’ve done a better job of checking in with my brother, but my sister went through kind of a rough patch and rather than keeping in touch with her, I gave her space. She told me that disappointed her and I felt awful about it. I know now when I need to be present and when I need to give her time to herself. In this context, I decided to go home in two weeks to be with both her and my mom for a “Girls’ Weekend.” I think that’ll be really good for us! As far as Aaron is concerned, I feel like our relationship gets better and better with each day that we’re together. He’s working really hard and I’m sharing my encouragement and support regularly. I love him and I ask him regularly how to be better. He doesn’t have many complaints, lucky me 🙂 I’ve made time for each of my friends this month, too! Between birthday parties and future travel plans, I think everyone knows I love and appreciate them. At least, I hope they do!

  15. Be happy – I had a really great month. I wish I were making more solid progress on items nine and twelve. I think if I make steadfast progress on both next month, I’ll be really solid on this resolution!

I think this helps me confirm what my focus should be in March: lose weight and get that end-date! Again, my actual weight right now is NO ONE’S BUSINESS, but it is a goal. I HAVE SPOKEN.

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Image from Pinterest. “The Apartment.”Brooklyn Nine-Nine . FOX/NBC. 25 February 2014.

Wake Up Well: My Morning Routine

Today was a lovely day! I slept in and snuggled with the kittens and Aaron before meeting my friends at the Farmer’s Market for her birthday. It was my first time there and I am so going back next weekend! All these artisans and gourmet foods with live music, all in one place. I cannot believe I had never gone before today!

Right now, I’m binge watching episodes of “Broad City” while waiting for my laundry to finish. My goal for tonight is to have my laundry washed, dried, and hung up before 8PM (it’s 5PM now), and have my hair washed and a fresh manicure done, too! I like to be in bed and asleep by 10PM. It gives me about seven hours of sleep before my 5AM wakeup! I like referring to it as my “call-time,” like I’m a model or an actress, and my wake-up time is the time I’m supposed to be on set and ready. Typically, my biggest task when I wake up is to get to the gym, and then to work on-time. That said, there’s a certain schedule I follow to maximize my time and get in the best frame of mind before I begin my 9-5 office job. Here’s my current morning routine:

  • 5:00 – 5:05: Brush teeth… among other things. A girl’s gotta go when a girl’s gotta go! Clean my pearly whites and put in my contact lenses to ACTIVATE MY VISION.
  • 5:05 – 5:15: This is when I’ll stretch and clear my mind. I’ll turn on some calming music to meditate. I can shake off any nightmares, or jump-start my brain and body for my workout!
  • 5:15 – 5:20: Gym clothes change! Ditch the jammies and put on my workout clothes. I’ll always take my clothes out the night before to save time!
  • 5:25 – 5:30: Hydrate and walk to the gym! I’m not great about drinking water, but I’ll always try to get in one glass at the very least first thing in the morning. I’m one song’s walk away from my gym, too!
  • 5:30 – 6:15: Workout! I do strength training in the mornings, more often than not. It’s when I work on my handstands and pull-ups!
  • 6:15 – 6:30: Cooldown and rinse. I’ll walk home and jump in the shower to get clean for my workday! I’ll pause occasionally to turn on the coffee machine for Aaron, have another glass of water, and as of late, grab a can of cat food for the kids to have for breakfast!
  • 6:30 – 6:55: Makeup, hair and dress! Depending on the day, I’ll curl my hair or straighten it, and put on enough makeup to look alert for the day. I’ve been experimenting with my timing to add a bit more detail to my makeup!
  • 6:55 – 7:05: Wake-up call and walkout. By the time I’m dressed and ready for work, I’ll wake up Aaron (if the cats haven’t already), feed the cats, and roll out for the day!

On my best days, I’m out before 7AM and at my office by 7:40. I like showing up early to my office so I can turn on my computer, fill up my water bottle if I need to, or answer a text from my mom if she’s sent one. And yes, I like closing out work tasks before phone calls come in and things get busy!

What are your favorite ways to wake up in the morning?

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5 Ways to Be Perfect

Something that I’ve seen discussed more and more in the past year is the concept of the “Imposter Syndrome.” For those who are scratching their heads, it’s a phenomenon in which you experience self-doubt in the extreme. You feel like you are unworthy of your accomplishments, and that every achievement you’ve made is an undeserved victory.

I think plenty of people can relate to this feeling! I can’t imagine how powerful we would be if we believed in ourselves. It’s hard to feel like you’re doing your best, like who you are is good enough, when we see people online who are miles ahead. You have people like Malala Yousafzai, who is a Nobel Prize laureate/advocate at 22, and then you have people like Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen, who are billionaires at 33. What’s a girl in her mid-twenties to do?

I’m currently watching America’s Next Top Model reruns with a cat on her shoulder, after stealing a few handfuls of chocolate chips from the jumbo bag. Suffice it to say, I’m not exactly the girl “who has it all together”! That said, I have a couple of different ways to help me feel like I am one of those people who has it all together. Here’s a few ways to put the “star” in “Impostar”!

  1. Wake up early. Benjamin Franklin once said “Early to bed and early to rise makes one healthy, wealthy and wise.” Okay, technically it’s “makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise.” But, as icon Cher once said, “Mom, I am a rich man.” I set my alarm for 5am each weekday, so I can wake up and BE awake before I go to the gym in the morning. I don’t set that alarm on the weekends, but I tend to wake up organically at 7 on the weekends! “Sleep is for the weak” is outdated these days. You know what’s the sign of a real champion? Getting your ish done, with seven hours!
  2. Look put together. It’s not about having the best clothes or the fanciest makeup! What matters is showing up and looking your best. Step one: look clean (three-day old eyeliner rings = not cute. I speak it from experience). Step two: look alert (find a five minute makeup look). Step three: know your style! My go-to outfit is a pair of jeans, a simple tee, and a long cardigan. It’s comfortable, but can be dressed up with the right accessories!
  3. Take 5… for EVERYTHING. Clean your space for five minutes. Go for a five minute walk. Meditate. If there’s things you want to get done, but can’t find the energy/time, do it for five minute. If you can get lost on Instagram for thirty minutes, you can get those dirty clothes off the floor and into your hamper.
  4. Read. Fun fact: All those successful people you admire? They all read. Find what you like and turn the page! You may learn something about others’ experiences, and you could learn something about yourself!
  5. Smile through it. Good days, bad days, when you want to cry, scream, set a cleansing fire, just smile. A positive attitude makes a world of difference! When accomplishing any goal, perseverance is everything!

I leave you with the words of my main man Kenneth Parcell:

Two Americans, Five Countries, One Honeymoon.

This morning, Aaron and I were pleasantly awakened by our cats stirring and stretching in preparation for their 7AM meal of the morning. Aaron fed them but then went downstairs to make some coffee. I quickly fell back to sleep, only to wake up sometime later and realize he wasn’t next to me, drinking his coffee and reading his Kindle. He texted me to come downstairs, needing help with the dishes from our Valentine’s dinner (he made me Chicken Piccata with roasted vegetables, sweet German wine, and fresh baked bread. HE BAKED. BREAD). I don’t know if it was just a subconscious thought, or my brain registering the scent of foreshadowing, but as I stood up I thought, “Wow. Our honeymoon was so special. We should go back.”

I walked downstairs to see Aaron had taken his fresh baked bread and served it up as a mini palate of shakshuka for us to enjoy for breakfast. My heart sang. How lucky am I? The spicy tomato spread he had prepared and the perfect texture of the bread reminded me of the tasty foods we enjoyed while sailing through the Dalmatian coast on our honeymoon. I wanted to give a day-by-day play-by-play of each moment, but no one has time for that. So instead:

TOP TEN MOMENTS OF OUR HONEYMOON

  1. Breakfast at the Majestic Hotel. Our flight from the US to our honeymoon landed in Barcelona, giving us about 24 hours in the city before boarding our ship. We’d had a brief but fun first day walking the city, but on October 30, it was about getting to the ship and sailing away on our adventure! We were set to head to our ship at 11, so we decided to enjoy a nice breakfast at our hotel: the Majestic Hotel, located ten minutes from Las Ramblas. It was all marble, rooftop pool, and the greatest complimentary breakfast I have heretofore experienced (okay, tied for the one we had in Venice ten days later). I made myself the most perfectly proportioned mimosa, and enjoyed a little bite of each of their offerings: pancakes, fresh fruit, eggs as you like it, charcuterie, muffins, and yes… breakfast pizza. This was only a foreshadowing of the deliciousness to come.

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    Okay, so this isn’t from breakfast, this is from the day before, when the staff surprised us with a welcome and congratulations complimentary cake! Note the little card, addressed to Mr. Brunet and Mrs. Mallory
  2. The View of Monaco from our ship. We boarded the Celebrity Constellation later that day and set sail to our first stop, Monaco. We spent the day walking the old city, tasting the best chocolate I’ve ever had, walking coastal gardens, and walking through the nicest shopping center filled with shops of clothes I can’t afford yet. I’ll get there though. The memory alone makes me want to work into billionaire status. That night, Aaron and I had a fabulous dinner, went to a fabulous performance of a violinist, and then parted ways for a bit while he took a shower. I took to the deck to watch us drift a few miles away to Nice, our next stop. The coastal city was all lit up with the night lights, twinkling not so distantly. I don’t think they’ve created the words to describe that view yet. All I’ll say is every bit of pain I’ve experienced, every heartbreak, sorrow, or silly mistake I’ve made, has been worth it, because it brought me to that night and that view. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced gratitude more intently.

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    This view at night was everything.
  3. Serenity at the Trevi Fountain. My mom, sister, and movies told me that I would love Rome. Maybe it was just the day of our trip, but wow… we really did not. The city was full of history and though we appreciated being there, it was just SO crowded and SO dense. The most crowded spot in our entire day trip was visiting the Trevi Fountain. Aaron, myself, and probably a thousand other tourists were all packed like sardines into this tiny square with the iconic fountain. Aaron was NOT having the crowd, and to be fair, I wasn’t very enthused either. But what, are we NOT going to take a photo of it? We shuffled our way to the front of the fountain and down the steps to be right at it’s edge. Despite the horde, for a moment there, everything froze. It felt like the crowd of a thousand dwindled down to a few small families. The sounds of every language in the world was lost in the sound of rushing water from the various fountain spots. I tossed a coin into the fountain, closed my eyes, and made a wish. The world is wide enough for all of us.

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    Are there ten dozen other tourists looking to get the same photo behind me right now? I hadn’t noticed.
  4. The Gelato in Sicily. If I could narrow down the food of this trip, it was all bread and cheese and champagne and chocolate and yes, gelato. When we arrived in Sicily, I expected to have spicy pizza and maybe some wine. While I did have some wine, I instead learned about other specialties in Sicily, like pistachios. It was that day that I tried pistachio gelato for the first time. Growing up, my mom had always ordered pistachio ice cream, while my dad and siblings would go for cookies and cream, vanilla, chocolate… you know, normal flavors! I never understood how my mom could like pistachio, a nut based ice cream, when hot cookie dough ice cream with hot fudge was an option. Then I had fresh pistachio gelato, paired with Nutella gelato. I was overwhelmed. Overjoyed. Speechless with happiness. I ate pistachio gelato with nutella almost every day for the rest of the trip. Each gelato place was delicious, but that scoop in Sicily was my favorite. It was on my mind long after we returned home.

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    My body ate the gelato before my camera did, so enjoy this photo of the sea from our restaurant that day.
  5. The Streetcat of Greece. There was plenty to enjoy on this trip, but we had a bit of excitement every time we saw a dog or a street cat. Greece had multiple street cats. We did a food tour of Corfu, enjoying fresh cheese, kumquats, and limoncello. We also indulged in a five course lunch, where we were served bread baskets and wine and salad and fish. Halfway through our meal, a street cat traipsed into the restaurant. I don’t know if he could sense that Aaron was the cat person of our trip, but he strolled right up to Aaron, who quickly fed him some fish. The happy little kitty jumped into Aaron’s lap for cuddles. Aaron smiled the way he does when he’s really happy but is trying to be cool about it. By the time we left the restaurant the cat was moving on to the rest of his day, but Aaron gave me a look that said “Well, maybe we COULD take him home with us.” We would never! Too dangerous! And yet. Jake and Rosa were born four days later.

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    Very good cat jumped in Aaron’s lap.
  6. Montenegro wine. We were scheduled to go into Montenegro, the next day, but the sea was angry that day. The coast guard of the nation did not feel comfortable (nor did our captain) letting us tender that day in the choppy, windy waves. We were given a day at sea in exchange. Aaron and I were really looking forward to our tour through the city, but instead went onto our stateroom’s balcony to at least look at the view. Our surroundings looked like something out of “Game of Thrones” (they actually filmed the show not far from where we were). With that in mind, Aaron grabbed a bottle of wine we had been given by the staff as a welcome/congratulations present. Fun fact about me: I’m not a big drinker. If it doesn’t taste like juice (think champagne or Riesling) or a smoothie (think a frozen margarita), I’m probably not interested. I’m certainly not a fan of red wine. That said, standing on our deck, looking at the windy moody seaside of the Balkans, sipping red wine… I felt a sudden need to crush my enemies and set them ablaze in the scept.

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    Remember the Iron Fleet before you sail your thousands of soldiers in for a sneak attack.
  7. A cold Croatian night. That night was just as fun. The live performance from the night before wasn’t able to get back to shore, so they agreed to do another show that night. Lucky for us, since we hadn’t gone to the show the previous night! It was a group of UK boys performing soul music, and they performed Boyz II Men, Stevie Wonder, and Michael Jackson. At one point, they invited everyone to dance to one of their songs. I loved their energy and wanted them to feel encouraged. I also love dancing. So I went for it, and thankfully other people did too! After the show, Aaron and I grabbed a drink and went to the top deck. It was FREEZING, but Aaron didn’t notice. We walked and looked at the stars, and Aaron delightedly talked about the constellations. If it were ten degrees warmer I would have stayed up there for hours… but it wasn’t, and we made our way back to the room. That said, the Baked Alaska for dessert that night would only be the beginning for one of my favorite nights on our honeymoon.

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    The Celebrity Constellation is a very nice ship in which you feel like a Celebrity and stare at constellations but also interesting light fixtures.
  8. The Royal Vineyards of Zadar. On our last day of the ship, we toured Zadar, Croatia. The city was quiet, but remarkably beautiful. The day ended with a wine tasting at a vineyard at the top of the seaside hills. That view was almost as good as the one of Monaco. Aaron and I stole a few grapes from the vineyard vines, then followed our group to the scenic tables set up for us to enjoy the wines (they were paired with cheese, carpaccio, and yes, bread). I would go back just to picnic and enjoy that view for a day… and stargaze from the hill at night.

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    They say “take only pictures, leave only footprints.” I agree. Except in vineyards. Then it’s “Take photos and grapes like a goblin when no one’s looking.”
  9. The boots in Venice. For those who didn’t know, Venice is a canal-based city. You travel by foot or by taking a gondola. The ancient city was not built for modern society, and neither is their plumbing. When we arrived to the city, the streets were HEAVILY flooded. It was just par for the course for everyone else! They set up high rise planks to help tourists avoid flooding, and by flooding, I mean literally wading through the streets in a foot of standing water. As Aaron and I walked the city in this plank, we saw people walk past us in knee-high, poncho-plastic boots. Street vendors were selling them left and right. I thought they were a cheap tourist trap, and I was hesitant to spend the money, especially when I was sure they’d be expensive by tourist standards. They were ten euros a pair. WORTH IT. Aaron and I got bright neon boots to cover our sneakers and pant legs so we could walk through the city with ease. The typically jam-packed St Mark’s Square was near empty because of the water. I got a near-perfect photo without crowds. They may have looked a bit silly, but they were money well spent. They’re sitting tucked into the ottoman at the foot of our bed. Who knows? Maybe we’ll need them again one day!

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    It’s called fashion sweetie, look it up.
  10. The cafe in Amsterdam. After our two days in Venice, it was time to return to reality. We woke at 3AM to catch a 5AM flight to Amsterdam for a five hour layover. We landed at 9AM Amsterdam time. We decided to make the most of the layover and took a train from the airport into the city. I had fallen in love with the city when I had been there a few years earlier, and I was excited to share it with Aaron. I had the idea to find the Nutella cafe I had gone to then to get a crepe for breakfast, but Aaron requested we not venture too deep into the city, lest we get lost and end up sprinting through the airport to get to our flight on time. We wandered for ten minutes, enjoying the sunshine and the way the city felt clean and peaceful. Suddenly, there he was. A cat in a window of a bar. Turns out that bar was actually a restaurant (that yes, served alcohol at a reasonable hour). I grabbed Aaron and showed him the cat, and insisted we see if there was breakfast in this restaurant. We walked in and just as our feet passed the threshold, a piano version of “Someday My Prince Will Come” from “Snow White and the Seven Dwarves” began to play. My mind was made up as I turned to Aaron and said “Oh. We’re staying here.” Aaron had a coffee and I had a hot chocolate, which was served with whipped cream and gingerbread cookies and it coincidentally (?) looked like Mickey Mouse ears. It felt like fate. We took a canal tour before making it back to the airport, but I think we took a bit of Amsterdam back with us. We’ve mentioned going back again. I think we both fell in love with Amsterdam that day (or for me, my love grew deeper).

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    If you look really closely, you can see a cat’s head poking out on the left.

Aaron and I had many adventures on our honeymoon, and saw many beautiful places. We sipped the best champagne, slept in the most beautiful hotels, and shared many moments of genuine freedom, happiness and love. That’s what honeymoons are all about, at their core: starting your life as husband and wife as a mood-setter. Our lives together will be filled with happiness, beauty, indulgence, and love. If the past three months are any indication, we are off to a great start.

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We had these photos taken of us on the ship. Just a couple of soulmates, ready for what the world has to offer.

Mrs Mallory Joy Brunet – 10.19.19

As we approach the long Valentine’s/President’s Day Weekend, I figured there was no better time than now to commemorate October 19, 2019. A week from tomorrow, Aaron and I will have been married for four months. It has been filled with love, laughs, and perfect happiness.

Let’s start about a month prior — Labor Day Weekend, to be exact. My bridesmaids flew into Miami for our ill-fated bachelorette weekend, as a devastating hurricane stayed flourishing off the coast. Aside from a few bouts of rain (which, truthfully, is par for the course for any day in Florida), everyone enjoyed themselves until the flight home on Sunday, only for the storm to barely impact the city.

Fast-forward to the wedding weekend and, naturally, one of the biggest nor’easters is slated to hit the northeast that weekend. Kick the prayers in motion! Aaron and I touched down on a blustery, cool Wednesday, rendezvousing with my mother to get downtown to sign our marriage license. After a glass (or two… three?) of champagne, Aaron and I parted ways for me to spend time with my mom whilst Aaron went on his bachelor party in Montreal.

Mom and I stayed in Burlington that Wednesday night, but drove out to Waitsfield the next day, surrounded by clouds and rain. Prior to our departure, however, we went to a salon to get our hair and nails done before the big day. My hair looked great, but it stayed concealed in a hood the entire day as a deluge hit the town. Meanwhile, though my manicurist was sweet and great to chat with, the polish she had used was old and had bubbled on each finger within an hour of me leaving the salon. I was disappointed, but figured that if I could find a salon closer to the venue that could fit me in between then and the next day, I would; if not, only *I* would know my nails were less than perfect.

Meanwhile, halfway through my blowout, my friends Mishy and Kylie came to pick me up for a quickie lunch at UVM, our alma mater. I had suggested we go to Brennan’s, the student union diner, for old time’s sake. We grabbed the corner couches and a bag of complimentary popcorn. I promptly dropped the popcorn everywhere, and helplessly turned to my friends (who didn’t hold back their mocking laughter) and said “I can’t wait to graduate.”

Eating a quesadilla and a maple milkshake, with my two closest friends since freshman year at UVM, seven years after meeting on my wedding weekend, was truly a full circle moment. Those would continue throughout the weekend, including a brief stop into the new Hillel building (Jewish student union, for those not in the know) to see how the new space looked and grabbing hugs from the staff (both of whom were elated to see me, which only made it harder to leave).

I bid my friends farewell until the next day as my mom and I headed out of Burlington. Rainy days at UVM are a memory I keep close to my chest. I may have graduated by that point, but I wouldn’t trade those two-ish hours on campus for anything.

The rain kept trickling on and off the rest of the afternoon, as my mom and I dropped off goodie bags for her family and friends at the bed-and-breakfasts along the way. Halfway through the trip, my sister called to say her flight with my brother had been cancelled. My mom quickly finessed them another flight that would stop in New York, so they could get sleep at my grandparents’ house.

Eventually we arrived at The Inn at Round Barn Farm, our home for the next four days. We walked the property with Becky, the incredible wedding coordinator, going over final details. We were shown our rooms; my mom had the suite upstairs while I had the bridal suite on the bottom floor.

Let me be clear: BRIDAL SUITE. TO MYSELF. FOR TWO NIGHTS.

That alone was worth the trip. Huge canopy bed, separate sitting room with a jetted tub and fireplace (my. own. fireplace.), and full ensuite bathroom. Heaven. Heaven. Heaven.

My mom and I wound up driving through the town briefly, stopping at a well-reviewed pizza place for dinner. We shared a charcuterie plate, a pizza, and more champagne (just assume I had champagne on me at almost all times).

We ended up meeting up with my family from Chicago at a nearby restaurant for them to grab a few burgers at last call. I collapsed into bed not long after getting home, I was too sleepy! What a day!

The next morning, we had fresh breakfast and apple cider before I found a nail salon within a twenty minute drive of our venue. My mom and I began the drive, rolling down an interstate highway with brief glimpses of sun, and even a rainbow. A glimmer of hope. At this point, we knew the nor’easter was dissolving and there would be no more flight trouble; all that remained was the question of whether or not it would be too cold and muddy for us to hold the ceremony outside in the trees like I had wanted. Granted, an indoor ceremony would have been beautiful, but not “Vermont in fall, rustic colors and mountains” beautiful. We got to the salon, where I got the quickest and most perfect french manicure. I mean it. It took the manicurist maybe ten minutes to get that done.

I sat down to let them dry and happened to strike up a conversation with the woman next to me. Of all places, she was from Long Island, not far from where my mom grew up, and had retired to Vermont. She had had this beautiful life that was filled with love (naturally, her husband was a doctor– Long Island doctor, like both my parents). She gave me a big hug and congratulated me as my mom and I headed back to the Inn, where my brother and sister had finally arrived and were sleeping after a long, LONG day of traveling.

More and more family arrived as the afternoon went on, and soon it was time for the festivities to officially, unofficially, begin. Aaron and his groomsmen arrived for the rehearsal, as did our rabbi and select family members. Prior to the rehearsal, Aaron and I signed our ketubah, with Kylie and Aaron’s friend Jesse as our witnesses. We both also included our friends Mishy and Travis as witnesses; they both were unofficial members of our wedding party, having been out of the country when the time came to build the wedding party (Mishy in Scotland, Travis in Africa). It was a GREAT way to include them for a day so special to us.

Becky walked us through the rehearsal quickly, and soon it was off to the rehearsal dinner! More charcuterie, champagne, and laughs as both Aaron’s father and mine toasted to our happiness. Aaron’s father gave a loving, “Star Wars” themed speech, and my dad presented us both with coin sets from the year we were born (my dad’s a rare coins guy).

We all drove back to the venue, where Aaron and I quickly practiced our first dance routine one last time before he returned to the groomsmen AirBnB for the weekend. It was the last time I saw him before the altar.

A giggly night with the girls and a night with heightened awareness sleep later, it was the big morning. Another breakfast with the family, and the bridesmaids. It was a cold, sunny morning. If things weren’t too muddy or too cold by noon, we would be able to have the ceremony outdoors. After breakfast, the girls and I all walked the property, taking goofy photos and hugging to keep warm. I was in my burgundy leisure suit (it’s a suit for leisuring) and my big jacket. I must have been quite the sight, but dangit, did I feel happy.

Soon, it was time for us to start getting ready. I managed to only cry once the entire “getting ready” process, when I heard a certain song playing from my playlist (I was also getting eyelashes glued on, which stung).

Everything was slowly beginning to hit me when Becky walked in to give us an update.

“Mallory, I just talked to the team… we’re good for the outdoor ceremony.”

My heart froze. It was happening. I was getting my sun-kissed ceremony.

Listen, make fun of me all you want, but hear me out: I knew I had the perfect husband. No offense to all the other husbands out there, mine is the best. I wanted a perfect wedding to go with my perfect guy. Sunset in Vermont on a cool autumn evening. Imagine.

Photos flashed and hands were fanned to keep mascara from running until it was time. THE time.

I asked my mom, sister, and bridesmaids to leave the room and give me a moment to myself. I listened to “Tiny Dancer” by Elton John, and prayed. I thanked whatever higher power was out there, looking out for me, giving me my health, my family, my friends, that day, that weather, my whole life. Every bad day led to that great one. I was so, so ready.

Becky came to get me. I met my mom by the entrance to the ceremony area. It was our last moment together. I thanked her and told her I loved her. Then Becky signaled us, and the walk began.

My mom walked with me the first half of the aisle, and my father joined for the second half. Both were quietly whispering praises, telling me how beautiful I looked, how proud they were of me. We turned the corner to walk down the aisle and I saw my friends, family… and him. Waiting for me.

The ceremony was twenty minutes of blessings, love, and yeah, there was a Beatles quote thrown in there for good measure. We didn’t write our own vows, but instead chose to repeat the standard blessings and vows about honor, health, and happiness. We sipped wine, smashed a glass, and… okay, Aaron is not the “let’s make out all over the line for It’s a Small World” kind of guy, at all. I’m similar; there is a TIME and PLACE for a big romantic kiss in front of people.

“You may now kiss the bride” is THE time and THE place. Wowwie wowwie wow, still get goosebumps thinking about that kiss.

We spent an hour taking photos, where my feet got so cold from the ground that I couldn’t feel them by the time we got inside the reception venue. We took photos with the cows on the property. Amidst golden trees. Along the verdant farmland as geese flew overhead (I’m not joking. Straight out of “The Notebook,” “if you’re a bird, I’m a bird” kind of moment).

By the time we got to the family portraits, I was ready to just sit and enjoy our catered cocktail hour. Grilled cheese and tomato soup shooters were one of the items awaiting me, as just a tidbit.

One thing I’ll note: all music played at the ceremony was our choice. I created a playlist for the cocktail hour and reception, and they didn’t just take my ideas and work off them, they just straight up used them! During the cocktail hour I heard the soundtrack from “La La Land” and “The Incredibles,” both of which I put on my playlist. I heard those songs and I thought “Aw, they used my whole playlist.” A really sweet touch (and a massive compliment when, towards the end of the night, the DJ said it was the best playlist he’d ever used during a reception and wanted to use it at other weddings in the future. I have impeccable taste, MOM)!

As the reception began, Aaron and I did our first dance to “Happily Ever After,” the song that plays during the fireworks show at Magic Kingdom. We crushed it, thanks to lessons my mom had given us as a gift the year earlier!

My father-daughter dance was set to “Butterfly Fly Away” by Miley and Billy Ray Cyrus. It was a real full circle moment; growing up I always thought Miley Stewart and Robbie Ray Stewart (Miley and her dad’s characters on “Hannah Montana”) were like my dad and I. For a while there, he was my best friend. We had danced to their first duet, “I Learned From You” at my Bat Mitzvah. This was a great nod to that!

Aaron then danced with his mom to  “You’ll Be in My Heart” from Tarzan. I bawled the entire time.

By that point it was time for toasts! My aunt Terri and uncle Marc blessed wine and the bread of the table (Aaron and I got a whole loaf of challah to ourselves… a blessing indeed). My sister made a touching speech as my maid of honor, throwing in a few digs about my flights of fancy and joking how she bonded with Aaron while watching “Riverdale”. Aaron’s best man (and oldest friend) Levi gave an equally lovely speech where he revealed that Aaron had a female alter ego named Angela. I don’t know how much of it was shaped by the character from “The Office,” if at all, but think about it: Levi loves “The Office” almost as much as I do, and Aaron is a bit grumpy, very neat, and loves cats. So.

The rest of the night was a blur of dancing, cake, and laughing. Here’s a few things I do remember:

1. I don’t care how many Jewish weddings/Bat Mitzvah parties you’ve been to, the Horah is chaotic and no one knows what’s happening when it happens. Which way do we step? Who’s going up in the chair? What are we doing? It’s insane, in the best sense of the word.

2. To start up the dancing of the night, the DJ played “I’ll Be” by Edwin McCain, during which Aaron and I (and a few other couples) slow danced and I felt at peace with my entire existence.

3. I tossed my bouquet and danced with my girls to “Dancing Queen” by Abba. “Dancing Queen” was my thing before David Dobrik made it a thing, okay? ABBA EXISTED BEFORE VLOGS. MAMMA MIA.

4. Our last song of the night was a cover of “I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles)” by Sleeping at Last. It was perfect, sweet and soft.

5. I made a commitment to Aaron that day… but also my shoes. I didn’t take my shoes off the entire night. I said to my shoes as I put them on “Till home do we part, okay? It’s you and me tonight.” I needed help walking the 500 feet from the venue to the inn, they hurt so much after seven hours. Worth it.

Aaron and I promptly changed and went to the mini-after party in the Inn’s rec room, where the young’ins played pool, ate flatbreads, and drunkenly sang “Total Eclipse of the Heart” with the STRONGEST conviction.

The next day was a calm walk among the clouds. My updo had transformed into the gentlest of curls. My high school friends and bridesmaids all had a touristy afternoon in the mountains, going to the Ben and Jerry’s Factory, the Cabot Cheddar tasting store, and a general store where I was gifted a sign that read “Happy girls are the prettiest.” I must have been the most beautiful girl in the world that weekend (and that’s saying something. My makeup artist was a literal pageant queen).

After my friends dropped us off to head back to reality, Aaron and I ate burritos in our suite, and I enjoyed the hot tub next to a roaring fire. Aaron brought me one of the many desserts in our room. Have you ever been handed chocolate by your soulmate, while sitting in a jacuzzi next to your personal fireplace? Highly recommend it.

The next morning, we woke up at the crack of dawn to catch an Uber back to reality… for six days… before we left for our honeymoon.

To say the weekend was perfect is an understatement. To call a man as smart, compassionate, loving and kind as Aaron my husband, my partner-in-crime for life, is a true blessing. To have had those moments with my friends at UVM, at Ben and Jerrys, “shaking it off” on the dance floor, is a true blessing. I’ve always been able to recognize the little things about life that make it beautiful. This weekend, it really was a combination of the big and little things: Sunshine. Champagne. Friends. Family. Love.

Thank you to everyone who made this weekend so special. Aaron and I will remember it all, forever.
Special thanks to my mom, who planned this like it was an Olympic sport. Par for the course for her, to be honest.

A final thank you, of course, to Aaron. I love you and I like you. Happy Valentine’s Day.

10.19.19

A Masterpost: Part Two

A few months ago, I put together a database of life hacks that models, actresses, and the everyday beautiful person uses to be attractive. It was arduous and took hours of research to put together this manifesto of hotness.

I don’t know why I decided to do a part two. This watered-down, more simplified version also took hours (admittedly, less hours, but hours nonetheless), and I will be putting myself to sleep immediately after I share what I have learned.

In the past few months, while my face has gotten consistently less problematic, I have much more noticeable acne on my back and chest. Granted, no one really sees the “bacne,” and I have never felt like the boob-appreciators in my office spend their conversations with me ogling my chest, but if you were to casually look down from my face in a conversation or catch me in a blouse that is loose-fitting around my shoulders, you’d see little breakouts or big red marks. It’s unbecoming and quite frankly, at twenty-five, embarrassing. I’m a relatively clean person (I’m known to occasionally leave dirty laundry on the floor), and for my skin to show something other than what I want to present makes me feel so insecure.

Thus commencing a deep-dive into what Google has to say about “bacne” and “chestne” (yes, even the terminology sounds gross). I found about thirteen articles (I didn’t even plan for it to be thirteen, my favorite number, but I guess I got lucky) detailing what will help with this problem. I condensed all thirteen articles into one top ten list, based on the items I saw in almost every single list.

Do you have acne in places only you can see, like me? Try out these ten tips and see if they help!

1. Shower after a workout (or at least wipe yourself down if you can’t immediately shower, and rinse when you get home. I live about ~300 steps from my gym, so I shower after my morning workout. That said, after a 30-minute treadmill walk at work, I regularly just change back into my work clothes and get back to my desk. I should wipe down more post-treadmill walk.

2. Use a fragrance free, benzoyl peroxide cleanser with salicylic acid. The generic scented soap you’re using? Chuck it. Benzoyl peroxide kills the bacteria that causes acne, and salicylic acid, which exfoliates the skin.

3. Exfoliate twice a week. Use a chemical exfoliate, as physical ones can be a bit abrasive. A gentle scrub will slough off dead skin cells, which can clog pores and cause breakouts.

4. Keep your hair off your back. All those heavy mask products and conditioners can stay on your neck, shoulders and back, clogging your pores. Thankfully, my hair falls at the nape of my neck and I don’t want it to get much longer than that this year, but I did notice I poured out a big dose of conditioner today, suitable for a person with much longer hair than me. I think I could halve the conditioner I’ve been using!

5. Avoid tight fitting clothing and straps (like backpacks, handbags, and bra straps). I have noticed, for the past year, angry red marks on my shoulders and across my ribs when I take my bra off at the end of the day, and I don’t know what to make of it. At first I thought my bras were too tight, but they slide down my body every day, so I think I just need better bras. I also would love to spend this season in loose flowing shirts so my body wouldn’t feel so uncomfortable in every way!

6. Choose the right sunscreen (avoid oily products). I don’t put sunscreen anywhere except my face most days; when I leave for a day at Disney in the summer, I use a skincare-approved sunscreen. I don’t worry too much about this one! That said, the sun can darken your skin, including acne scars. So keep that in mind the next time you slather on SPF 5 tanning oil instead of sunscreen!

7. Use a medicated spray on hard-to-reach places. Have a spot in a place you can’t reach? Grab a spray and spray behind your back. No matter what, you will HIT your spot with the spray. This probably works, but I won’t be buying one. I saw spot treatments recommended a few times (re: three bad spots vs. a back full of breakouts), and Aaron has applied them on me a few times where I can’t reach. If you don’t have someone who loves you enough to put on your hard-to-reach pimples, then yes, absolutely get a spray.

8. Avoid hyper-glycemic foods. White rice? Milk? White sugar? White flour? GET IT OUTTA THERE. Added sugars and dairy can trigger certain hormones, causing breakouts. Wow, eating healthy to have better skin? Improving inside to help your outside get better?

9. STOP. PICKING. Your fingers are disgusting and your chest and back skin scar easily. LEAVE IT ALONE.

10. When all else fails, talk to a doctor. A dermatologist can provide you with oral medication, prescription medication, and even stronger medications like a birth control or Accutane. Try the first steps first, because this shouldn’t be your first step!

 

Here are the sources I used, where you can find these tips in depth, as well as other tips and recommended products:
1. How to Prevent and Treat Chest Acne Fast
2. How to Get Rid of Bacne: 8 Bacne Products from Dermatologists
3. How to Get Rid of Chest Acne
4. Chest Acne: What Causes it and How to Get Rid of It 
5. Why You’re Getting Acne on Your Chest and What You Can Do to Get Rid of It 
6. How to Get Rid of Back Acne
7. Back Acne: How to See Clearer Skin
8. How to Get Rid of Back Acne
9. How to Treat Back Acne and Body Acne
10. How to Get Rid of Bacne – 15 Dermatologist Approved Tips
11. How to Treat Back Acne
12. How to Get Rid of Back Acne As Approved by Pro Dermatologists 
13. These Body Acne Products Will Get Rid of Back and Chest Acne Forever

Here’s hoping that, by following these steps, I will have skin so clear that people will wonder how I got an Instagram filter to flatter me in real life.

 

My Bucket List

Last week, one of my favorite tv shows in recent years came to a close. NBC’s “The Good Place” was funny, light-hearted, and provided a compelling and entertaining look at a potential theory about what happens when we die. If you believe in the afterlife, you hope that heaven is a magical place where you’ll experience happiness for eternity. Heaven is a place where everything is possible. I won’t say what happens in “The Good Place,” but the final episodes made me think about what I want to have done by the time I have completed my journey in this lifetime/soul cycle/dimension.

Here are my top ten things that I want to do before I die:

1. Go to Fashion Week and see a fashion show. I would love to go to fashion week in Paris, Milan or NYC! I want to see the catwalks for myself, complete with the models with their elegance and the designers who create the art that inspires them.

2. Learn how to fight with a lightsaber. HEAR ME OUT, OKAY? Since dating Aaron, I’ve really gotten into the Star Wars movies (I liked them before we met, but his love for them has made me like them even more). Hollywood Studios has these epic, IRL lightsabers. It’s crazy to watch fan videos and meetups of people actually engaging in combat with them. It’s like sword fighting! I want to get a lightsaber this year, and I hope Aaron can teach me. I’ve seen him fight a friend with his. He’s trained his whole life for this.

3. Go scuba diving in Australia. This is twofold, because I want to get my scuba license before I die!

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Image from Pics.Me.”Gossip.”The Office. NBC. 17 September 2009.

I think I want to go shark diving in Australia but I’m also a little too scared to do it. Maybe I’ll make that the last item on my bucket list, so I can at least say in the last millisecond of my life “Hey I finished my bucket list” before a Great White swallows me whole.

4. Go to the Winter Olympics. I loved figure skating as a kid, and even now I find the sport absolutely beautiful and mesmerizing. I want to go to the Winter Olympics one day to see the champions of this sport in person.

5. Attend Wimbledon. See above statement about figure skating, but kind of replace with tennis! It’s the one outdoor sport I more than tolerate. I think it’s very energetic and suspenseful. I’d love to see the greatest championship with my own two eyes!

6. Attend a benefit wearing a dress like Anastasia’s blue ball gown in the movie “Anastasia.” This movie came out when I was four three years old, I believe, and I’ve stored this dress in my subconscious for years now.  I love this dress and I want one just like it, and I want to wear it somewhere fancy with very important people.

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Anastasia. Directed by Don Bluth and Gary Goldman, performances by Meg Ryan, John Kusack, Kelsey Grammar, and Angela Lansbury, 20th Century Fox, 1997.

7. Go to Asia. Adding any travel bucket list doesn’t seem fair, because a) I want to go everywhere and b) I WILL go everywhere. But specifically, I want to go to Bali and swim in a waterfall. And then go drink out of a coconut or pineapple. Or eat a smoothie bowl out of a coconut or pineapple. Speaking of food…

8. Eat the $1,000 Golden Opulence Sundae at Serendipity 3. This is one of the most expensive desserts in the world, and from the looks of the rest of the list, they’re that expensive because they include an opulent piece of jewelry (the most expensive item on the list includes a 10+ carat engagement ring). I want the price to be all about the indulgence of the food! It’s silly but one day, I will enjoy this frozen treat that is worth more than my rent. ONE. DAY.

9. Learn Hebrew. Can I call this my mother tongue? Probably not. Will it be super useful when I travel? Unlikely. I still want to learn it! Also on this list is French, Italian, Spanish, German, Mandarin and Russian. I should also probably learn Portugese because I’ve been hearing it more and more in everyday life, too!

10. Meet (and thank) a personal hero. Whether it’s Brendon Urie, Demi Lovato, Tina Fey, or Mindy Kaling, certain people really helped me feel happy and comfortable with who I am. I know I could just comment “Thanks for saving me” on one of their Instagram posts, but that feels disingenuous. I’d love to meet someone influential who made a difference to me at a point when it’s not fangirly for me to say “Thank you for what you’ve created.” And for good measure, I thank my mom every day!

These are just a few of the things I’d like to do before I die. My time on earth will mean something, or at the least, be full of meaning.

Now it’s 9:20 PM and dreams of Balinese waterfalls and fancy foods await! Sweet dreams, for sure.

Mallory’s Monthly Reads – January!

It’s February 1st! I completed three books this month and started another two. I’m hoping I can finish four books this month. In the meantime, here are the three books I read this month:

1. Settle for More by Megyn Kelly. After seeing “Bombshell,” I decided to take a closer look at Megyn Kelly’s story. I had remembered her from her role as a reporter during the 2016 election and her involvement in the Roger Ailes scandal, and I wanted to know a bit more about her. “Settle for More” is her memoir of her life from her childhood up to 2016. Turns out, there’s more to her than a blonde former Fox News Correspondent. This is a woman who came from a middle class New York family, encountered bullying from her peers all the way through her life, and, I was shocked to see this, started out as a lawyer. She had wanted to go into journalism from the get-go, but wound up as a workaholic attorney for one of the top law firms in Chicago. One fateful guitar group class led her to someone who worked for the local news station, and from there she transitioned into becoming a correspondent (who initially tried out for CNN). A lot of people think of her as a dim-witted Republican nightmare, but she says in her book that she’s never felt fully aligned to either of the larger popular political parties. Fair enough.
Her show on Fox News had some of the highest ratings for the network, but I’ll admit, her transition to NBC wasn’t great, and didn’t last long. That said, I have a smidgen of a bone to pick with her being fired: she defended a “Real Housewife” for dressing up as Diana Ross for Halloween, and was then terminated for her comments. But the Real Housewife, who actually DID the costume (the controversy came from using blackface), is still on the payroll. Make it make sense, fellas.

Here’s a few quotes I liked from her book:
“If you force a woman to choose between her work and her child, and she has any choice at all, she will choose her child. And then you will lose her, and all the money you’ve spent training her, which you will then have to spend again on a new person, when the cycle will likely continue unless you hire all men or postmenopausal women, which happens to be illegal.”

“Being tested by different viewpoints in my life, being sometimes offended or occasionally hurt, or even targeted, is a big part of what prepared me for the challenges I’ve faced in my career—especially this past year. I had done the grueling sit-ups and my core was strong. I could withstand some gut punches.”

“That’s the bedrock of the First Amendment—the answer to speech you do not like is not less speech, it’s more speech.”

As well, her book title comes from this Doctor Phil quote: “The only difference between you and someone you envy is, you settled for less.”
Damn, that hits.

2. The Psychopath Test: A Journey Through the Madness Industry by Jon Ronson. After seeing Jon Ronson’s Ted Talk on this subject, I jumped at the chance to read this book. In this book, Jon Ronson meets with Scientologists, psychiatrists, and some “real life” psychopaths to determine what, or who, really defines a psychopath. In his book, he details taking a psychopath-spotting course, including the twenty-or-so qualifiers of a psychopath as a sort of quiz, in which if you score above a 25 (I believe that was the number) you’re a psychopath. He mentions that if  you, the reader, are nervous or scared of being a psychopath, you aren’t one. That was a relief, although I took the quiz and scored a 13. Some of the psychopaths had a reasonable explanation to some of their symptoms (one of them is “delusions of grandeur,” to which he responded “Well, you’ve gotta believe in you!”). A lot of the psychopaths interviewed were current or former successful executives, those whose ability to empathize with the little guy probably, to them, would have slowed down their own success. That said, it’s not a crime to be a jerk, so those guys get some semblance of a pass. The few others that were literal criminals who committed acts of violence, well, they’re in jail (or avoiding their home country for fear of being put in jail). This was a truly fascinating read!

A few good quotes:

“You have to feel sorry for psychopaths, right? If it’s all because of their amygdalae? If it’s not their fault?” “Why should we feel sorry for them?” he replied. “They don’t give a shit about us.”

“If you take loving kindness out of the human brain, there’s not much left except the will to win.”

“There is no evidence that we’ve been placed on this planet to be especially happy or especially normal. And in fact our unhappiness and our strangeness, our anxieties and compulsions, those least fashionable aspects of our personalities, are quite often what lead us to do rather interesting things.”

3. Catch and Kill: Lies, Spies, and a Conspiracy to Protect Predators by Ronan Farrow. This one was especially hard to read. It was actually a book I read with Audible, so I won’t have any quotes for it (I chiefly listened while driving to and from work). It detailed the process of investigating and exposing the treachery and horror of Harvey Weinstein. It was a really infuriating read, as Ronan detailed this pattern of Harvey’s team of secret agents and PR mavens “catching” a story about a victim of his and then “killing” it. This person and his army of lawyers and PR specialists buried every opportunity for the truth to come out with phone calls, threats, harassment, and the destruction of careers. It was especially hard to hear Ronan go to NBC News with interviews, recordings, and witnesses, only for NBC executives to squash the story, citing that the evidence didn’t meet their standards (THEY HAD AUDIO OF HARVEY WEINSTEIN ADMITTING IT. WHAT. DO. YOU. MEAN.). It was even harder to hear that because there was never any written reports of Matt Lauer’s harassment incidents, the story that led to his termination was the first tangible evidence even though it was apparently an open secret within the network. NBC was the company that paved the way for so many women in television, and it broke my heart to see that even now some executives ignored the obvious abuse of women in the name of money. I still think NBC is one of the greatest companies in the world, despite a few terrible, shameful choices. I still want to lead the company, and clearly, they would benefit from having even more women leaders. I humbly volunteer.

I’m hoping that this month’s reads will be a little bit lighter. I’m still not sure what I’m going to read, as the two books I started were a book about clearing your mind and finding inner peace, and a book that is considered one of the first to truly discuss modern feminist issues. Sounds great! Not super happy, though. We shall see!