This week, I feel oddly fatigued, which will likely make working through this week’s check-in a little bit of a bummer! Still, I only have three more check-ins for this dumpster fire of a year. Without further adieu, let’s take a looky-loo!
1. Read 52 books – I was supposed to read ten books this month. I read three. Dang.
2. Do pull ups – I’m kind of losing faith in this one. I actually didn’t go to the gym all last week because of an injury! I’m feeling better this week, so hopefully things will get better.
3. Spend LESS. TIME. SCROLLING – Okay, I want to say that I did a good job this month! I still find myself reaching for my phone, but I fall down less meaningless rabbit holes on social media. I still like scrolling while I finish my steps, and that’s kind of my goal! If I’m gonna scroll, I have to meet a goal.
4. Write 104 Blog Posts – Nailed it. Crushed it. Gonna keep crushing it. <- I wrote this last month. Still applies! Yahoo! <- I wrote this last month, too! Still applies! Double yahoo! <- We got ourselves a triple yahoo! <- Look out guys… it’s a QUADRUPLE YAHOO.
5. Romantic trip with Aaron from Dec. 26 2020 – Jan. 2 2021 – T minus sixty days to our end of year getaway!
6. Stop engaging in schadenfreude – I did well with this this month, save for a two-hour Youtube video exposing an influencer scam.
7. Take better care of my skin – I went to the dermatologist this month to get a refill on my prescription. They recommended a topical ointment and suggested a new cleanser. THE CLEANSER MADE MY SKIN FLAKE LIKE A CEREAL CRISP. That said, I need to moisturize and wear more sunscreen.
8. Go stargazing – OKAY HEAR ME OUT FOR A MINUTE. I didn’t go stargazing BUT I did the bioluminescent kayaking trip I mentioned at the beginning of the year with a friend! That, combined with all the wonderment I’ve been feeling when staring at the stars on my sunrise walks has me feeling like I sort of accomplished this. That said, “sort of” and I aren’t good friends. I think I owe it to myself to actually sit and learn some constellations, and then try to find them on a clear night (or a clear morning, at like 5AM).
9. Get a new job – I applied. Had an interview. Still goose egg. Still trying.
10. Do a handstand – Still lowkey crushing this. I’m a little worried that I may need to lose weight to give my body less to lift, but I’m still on my hands every day I go to the gym!
11. Go see two of my favorite performers – Still not happening this year. BUT I’m adding Adele to the list.
12. Lose weight – I genuinely think I completely failed at this one. It feels bad. I’m still going to do my best, but it’s hard to not feel like a loser, and not in the way that you want in a weight loss goal.
13. Give Aaron a great 26th birthday – Mission accomplished! Now, what to get him for Christmas?
14. Be a better friend, wife, sister, daughter and granddaughter – I’ve seen friends in person, done a Skype chat, and went to a bridal shower of my soon-to-be-married friend! Aaron and I had a great anniversary together, but I feel like every time I cheat on my diet I let him down in some way. At our anniversary dinner I asked him how to be a better wife and he said “Be healthier, and be more mindful.” I do need to work on both of those things! I talked to my brother and sister regularly this month. I also went home to visit my mom! I didn’t call my grandparents once. I feel so terrible.
15. Be happy – I think that this month, I felt very disappointed in myself. I had great times with Aaron, the few friends I saw, and some good personal victories, but overall, I know how mediocre this month was in terms of my goals. It’s hard to be happy when you’re letting yourself down so constantly. I owe it to my mental sanity to do better, to BE better.
I think I need to give myself a sliding scale at the end of the year. Add in the circumstances of the plague (and how that should have balanced/tipped certain scales) and the rest of 2020’s shortcomings to see how I REALLY did. The ones I really fell behind in should be a priority for next year. We shall see! For now, I am going to finish my steps while I listen to an audiobook, and then I am going to fall asleep at an extremely early hour. Sweet dreams!